A Garden of Virtues

I can't move, can't speak or breathe You must move me around as you please And if you drop me, it will hurt me, But I can't help it if I love you With my doll's heart. I'm afraid to move, afraid to speak or breathe Lest you stop loving me So I wait silently for attention, My doll's heart beats only for you, My eyes are only on you. I don't change like you do I don't grow old Hands touch this porcelain face Others gaze into these blank doll eyes That fail to understand what they see This doll mind remains unwritten in a false innocence Love me, love me I'm trapped in an unmoving porcelain form And I can't help loving you, Silent and noninterfering, A doll's face, a doll's mind, This love, yours alone. 

Through this film of darkness covering my gaze and all that I see my thoughts are all for you What am I, who am I, that I long for the sheltering gloom of that dark place why, when I am lonely, can I not seek the companionship of others Why do I go where I am not wanted Why am I peaceful where I am not comfortable? I feel it would be the joy of my life to please you just once But again and again I disappoint Just when it is most crucial to succeed I make my slip And am fated always to be lackluster in your eyes Why when I am separated from that place Do my thoughts turn toward it again and again That dark and lonely morgue? Just when I think I may have won your approval You remind me that I am unwanted Just when I think you might open the door I find it locked against me You shut me out and leave me with my own scattered thoughts It seems like I belong with you Or at least I don't belong anywhere else Won't you please give me a chance?