Angelica, Barbies

I received Angel Face this weekend, was somewhat disappointed in the quality as described. The seller claimed her as MIB, but she missed her diamond ring, and her cosmetics have been opened and smeared all over her face and in her hair. I was able to clean off everything with my Magic Eraser. Her vinyl is noticeably more fragile than that of my vintage reproduction. I can see that she is decaying, however slowly.

Her hair has a waxy coat that allows for styling, just like my Fashion Face. Her hair was in its original style, but the rubber band rotted through it, and I haven't managed to pick it all out. I love her sunstreaked hair. It's brown underneath. I would never have thought Barbie could offer me this kind of peace and contemplation, but those evenings when in the late afternoon I have sat by the window photographing her or styling her hair I have felt so happy. There is a sense of familiarity, and a sense that I wished I could return to my childhood playthings with my camera and sewing abilities, and make them things, and now that is what I am going to do.

I wish to make Angel Face some plastic canvas yarn furniture in pink.

I have decided in my old tradition of naming Barbies that I will call her Angelica.

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