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Who is the summer doll going to be???

The new addition to my endless-summer world? This has been a tradition since I started collecting dolls in junior high school, though I have let it fall by the wayside, **not** purchasing a summer doll for some years, and purchasing **more** than one on others.

What is a summer doll??

She or he is a new doll, an expensive doll, a pretty piece, a plaything that makes me feel a little weak from its beauty, something that gives me that special sense of deliciousness that only a beautiful new doll can do.

When I first started my collection, there was not eBay, and I had not really discovered the world of vintage dolls (my childhood was just over, and I felt no need to collect play dolls). My prizes were expensive, exquisite porcelain dolls, and later, the unparalleled resin ball-jointed dolls. Throughout every year I purchase many dolls, but they are used/old/fixer-upper, in varying degrees. They are not the same as the exquisite doll that comes in a box, her limbs carefully styrafoamed and tied neatly with little bows, not a hair out of place on her lovely head, no face paint to retouch, no garments to replace.

Summer is when my creativity and madness come to full tilt, and my every sense is alive to beauty and experience. No time is more wonderful for me to receive a new doll. And **look** at the day, why, it will be summer soon!! Hmm.

Who do I think about all the time? Who do I dream of? Who do I desire, and feel guilty about it?? Hmm. More than one, ha ha. But I think I know who my exquisite summer doll will be already. I have to ask myself only one question: what would I later regret not experiencing?

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