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Looking out


Looking out, originally uploaded by blacsylc.

The day before yesterday I did not upload with the correct settings. I was displeased with my pic, so maybe it was psychological. However, now it doesn't look so bad to me.

I have noticed these daily pics reflect my mood, thoughts and desires like a dream might. The day I took this picture I felt hopeless, but reflecting now I can see beneath that there was hope. I cannot really want something without hoping, and there was something I have been wanting so much.

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